decisions

All day long I have been thinking about decisions that we make everyday. It's interesting to see the different types of decisions that we make. We make some little decisions each and everyday like what to wear, what to eat, what time to go to bed, how much homework to do, who you will spend time with and many more. They there are bigger decisions that you make that affect people in ways that you cannot even fathom. I am in that decision making process right now and it's hard. It's hard to know what is right and what is wrong when people are screaming from every other direction how you are supposed to feel, and how you are supposed to think. I am beginning to realize that there is only one person who is capable of making decisions for me...and that is me. God gave me the free will to make decisions...and yes, sometimes I mess up and make the wrong decisions. But God knows when that will happen and He will always be there to pick me up when I fall flat on my face. I know that I will be okay. I know that years from now I will look back and think that these decisions are small and i am not going to even know why I stressed out over them. But right now, there seems to be so much at stake and it scares me. It scares me that I do not have all of the answers right in front of me. It sucks that I have no way of fast forwarding a few weeks, months, or years to see how things will turn out if I do it this way. However, God already knows what I'm going to do. And He knows if I'm going to fall flat on my face or not. Again, that's the beauty of God. He knows me inside and out and He will never leave me nor forsake me. I know that God will guide me through this. My last thought for the night is this song...it's by Rush of Fools and is titled "Undo" The lyrics are amazing...and they are truth. The only truth I need and that I can hold onto with no doubts.

"Undo"

I've been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become