"i don't just come...I arise"

So I have been struggling seriously to get myself together. I'm not sure why I have been feeling so gross recently, but I've been severely struggling to get by. I am an emotional and mental mess. A lot of changes are going on and I'm not sure when there is going to be a calm. I think that we've all heard of the term "a calm before the storm." Well, I feel like my life is a calm before the storm...never quite hitting the storm full on. I get some rain...maybe a little bit of thunder. But I never find myself deep in the eye of the storm. I never have seriously been thrown into the raging water and the terrifying winds. However I think that's all getting ready to change. The storm is starting. The rain is just coming and it's time to go through this storm so that I can come out a whole person again. i will come out the other side whole again. i will come out the other side a stronger person than I am now. I will come out the other side a new person with new ideas and new knowledge and ready to face the world. I feel like I have to go through some storms before I truly know what my life is supposed to be about. With everything around me being swept up into this storm, I feel like I need to focus on myself and what I want to look like when I come out of the storm. I'm coming out in a whole new way. I'm not just going to come...i'm going to arise.