blessed

Recently I have been thinking a lot about what I have and the people that I have in my life. I have realized that each and every relationship that I have needs work. Any relationship has to have effort put into it from all parts in order for it to be a successful and beneficial relationship. I have been thinking a lot about certain people and whether they are worth putting the effort into recently when I never see anything back. I wonder when do I draw the line of trying to help someone when they won't accept the help or take the responsibility to help themselves. How far is too far? There are just some people that I don't think I can continue to try and salvage relationships with...and some people I have let go without that being my intentions. To those people that I have dropped without realizing it...I'm sorry. But I also apologize to the people that I can't continue to try with. I am moving on and I am taking those people that are beneficial to me. I'm taking the people that care about me and my well-being and are interested in helping me grow and learn.

valentine's day

So it's been a while since i've posted. I want to start out by saying that I hate commercialized holidays that we celebrate in this country. Maybe I'm just being like this because I don't have a valentine to celebrate Valentine's Day with...but I've never had a good Valentine's Day. My best memory of Valentine's Day was when I was 15 my Mom took me to get my ears pierced a second time. A boy gave me a ring when I was 18 on Valentine's day....then broke up with me 2 months later. This Valentine's Day was supposed to be with someone special...but he decided I wasn't special enough. In my head I hope that he is suffering just as much as I am...but in my heart I know that's not right of me. So I found myself today laying in bed all day doing absolutely nothing and calling my Mom crying asking if she will once again be my Valentine. How pitiful am I?? Oh it gets better...then 3 of my girlfriends who are also single and I went and saw "Dear John" in theatres....and it was awful. So on Valentine's Day I got a movie that sucked, a diet coke, and a vanilla milkshake. Happy freakin Valentine's Day to me.

Yes, I'm complaining...yes this sucks...but I know that when I wake up in the morning and go to church I will have the best Valentine that anyone could ever hope for. I know who loves me and He will give me much more than a ring, empty promises, or a diet coke. He will give me everlasting love that will endure through all of time. I'm so thankful that I have a Valentine like that. A Valentine that will be there through the end of time and will never leave me. He will never leave me for someone prettier, He will never promise something that he can't fulfill, and He will never say a harsh word to me. I know He loves me...and that is all that matters on this Valentine's Day. So yes, I'm sad on this Valentine's Day, but in my heart I know that I have the best Valentine ever.

snowed in and no place to go

I had a feeling that we were going to get a lot of snow this week when police and security on our campus sent our an email when there wasn't any snow on the ground at all 2 days ago warning us about the weekend weather. I like snow...when I don't have to be out in it. So for right now I am LOVING being able to stay inside and not have to go anywhere. Granted I have LOTS of homework I could and will be doing soon, but for now, laying in bed is okay. Sometimes that's the best feeling in the world.