Facts of Life

Here are some things that I have learned in the past several months, and probably years.


1. If you wear your glasses with your contacts you will get a migraine easily.
2. Getting up at 3:15AM to go to work sucks.
3. Stay away from people in your past, there's a reason they didn't make it into your future.
4. YOU are the only person who can choose your family, and if people get angry about your choices, that's their loss, not yours.
5. When you get a new phone number, make sure that everyone important gets it!! (ex: the place where you just bought your new car)
6. Pick and choose your battles. One small battle is not worth an agonizing war.
7. "Friends" are the ones that are there no matter what...not just when it is right for them.
8. There are no such thing as "quick" decisions.
9. High school was the easiest 4 years of my life...being an adult sucks 90% of the time.
10. Life is not fair, but God is just and merciful and will always be there to help and guide you. All we have to do is open up our eyes and watch and listen. He's there in ALL situations, and His victorious right hand watches over us all the time. There's no need to be anxious and upset about things that you cannot change. Just breathe, and let God be the one who guides your thoughts and your actions and things can only go well in the long run.

And this has got to STOP

So tonight I made the first step in what I believe will change my life forever. I filled out my patient evaluation information for Bariatric Surgery. I have thought about it and talked about it a lot and I have decided that this is one thing that I want to do to get my life back. I am calling tomorrow to make an appointment for my consultation. I've already filled out the paperwork for the evaluation and I'm going to do this. Please pray for me as I continue down this road. This is what I need to do.

Philippians 4:6

"Do not be anxious in anything, but with prayer and petition, in thanksgiving, present your requests to God."

I find myself in an abyss of feelings and thoughts and emotions. Trying to figure out what is best. I throw myself a little pity party daily about the "pause" my life is on. One way I turn, I have Friend #1 so successful and running a business and happy with his life. Friend #2 is married with a beautiful baby and has a job she loves. Friend #3 is happily married with her husband and doesn't have to work so she can go to school full time. Oh and then there's Friend #4 who is engaged to an amazing guy and is getting ready to have a dream wedding. Ugh...I could go on and on but I know it's not beneficial to me to complain and sulk in pity.

I was talking to a good friend yesterday and she reminded me of this verse about not being anxious about anything, but just pray. She said it like 5 times, "just pray." How often do we forget that we can't do anything about our current situations but pray and try our best. The rest is out of our hands. I have to remind myself daily that at the end of the day all I can do is lift up my hands and admit that I am nothing without the help of HIM. A song that has been in my head for weeks now is a song on Mandisa's new album "These Days". It's a fantastic song that reminds me that no matter what we always have what we need in Christ.

"These Days"

I never liked Mondays or bad news
Or breakin in new shoes
And mornings when I can't find my phone
Nobody likes traffic or short nights
Or situps or long flights
But sometimes that's just the way it goes
It's funny what you use to help me grow...

So I'll learn to love these days
Life along the way
In the middle of the crazy
God your love is so amazing
Through the ups and downs
You're the only hope I've found
The Lord you meet me in the madness

I'll learned to love these days
I'll learned to love these days

I can see a silver linin
When the sun's not shinin'
Even when you choose to bring the rain
Oh, but I'm trustin your leadin'
'Cause your Lord of all my joy and all my pain

So I'll learn to love these days
Life along the way
In the middle of the crazy
God, your love is so amazing
Through the ups and downs
You're the only hope I've found
The Lord you meet me in the madness

I'll learned to love these days
I'll learned to love these days

I could wait the hundred years
You gave me here the days when you near
The days when I was out there
Lookin for what comes next
Oh, cause every minute,every hour, everyday
Is such a gift and I can say
I'm thankful for each day

So I'll learn to love these days
Life along the way
In the middle of the crazy
God, your love is so amazing
Through the ups and downs
You're the only hope I've found
The Lord you meet me in the madness

So I'll learned to love these days
I'll learned to love these days
I'll learned to love these days
I'll learned to love these days